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May 1, 2001
It only takes a spark...
Well, a lot has happened! And this is the first real online entry. (As of today I'll be working on getting my Mexico journal entries created, and once my album is captioned, I'll be able to finish setting up the online photo gallery.
Anyway, all I can say is wow! People have been changed, from the team, and from people around us... I just found out that Natasha's father made it to church on Sunday, as well as Charles' dad. That, along with Lisa's dad, Norm without the smoking habit, and all our attitude and character adjustments, made this trip seem huge.
I've been asked to lead worship on Saturday since Markus won't be there (Andre's wedding), and Chris won't be there (Journey), which leaves me. Something has changed, because I'm not freaked out about leading it. I'm unsure, maybe, but hey, I've never officially led a worship time. And the fact I'm putting a lot of effort into it, without trying, seems like this is definately an opportunity God has given me.
This may be a door opening for me, who knows. I've been praying for a way out my present situation... coming back from Mexico has made life seem so shallow here. I can't believe how fast time goes by. It's like nothing is fulfilling any more, as much as that week was. My job, sure, I like what I do, but more and more I'm feeling boxed in. And with all my financial committments, the only planned way out is way down the road.
Where will I be then? Patience. I don't know if this is a 'mission high' or if my contemplations are heart-felt. One thing people have said is that if you drop everything for God and rely completely on him, even down to the clothes on your back, he'll still even take care of you. My problem is, where do you draw the line for personal responsibilty then?
I've made commitments. Can I drop everything give it all to God, praying he'll take care of me? Or is that bad stewardship? I so want to do something more than a desk job. I want to be(come) a people person, helping with younger people. Keep praying, guess that's all I can do, for now at least. I'm getting tired.
As of this point I'll be setting up more mexico stuff and probably a few general things on my site.
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